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  • Taking this week off has given me a rare chance to breathe. After months of constant work and feeling buried under the weight of responsibility, I’m finally seeing that the systems I’ve built are starting to work. The school is running smoother, I’m regaining perspective, and I can actually feel the difference in my body…

  • Burnout is something I don’t know that I understand how to recognize when it’s happening—only that I know when it has happened. I don’t always feel anything different until I’m toast. I’m done. I reached that stage last week, and now I’m just pushing on fumes. I still care, I’m still pushing hard, but the…

  • I’m listening to the drums from the band rattle against the window.… Today was a rough one, the kind where I probably shouldn’t be putting as much weight on myself as I am, yet I can’t help feeling responsible, almost like I failed in the decisions I had to make. We have digital testing coming…

  • ADITL – 20251014

    I’m going to start doing more daily writing if I can. I feel it gets some things out of my system and allows me to vent, but it also gives me a place to recap how I was or what I was doing on those days. I started today waking up in kind of a…

  • Yesterday was a day. Not just any day, the kind of day that makes you want to crawl back into bed, hug your favorite blanket, and whisper, “Not today, world.” Because while my network was behaving itself (thank you, firewall gods), the same couldn’t be said for one of our servers managed by a vendor.…